Friday, March 30, 2012

{One Friday Moment }

{One Friday Moment }

A single image capturing a moment.
A simple, special extraordinary moment.

A moment rummaged from my niece's album 2009 that I want to pause, savor and remember.

"This Moment" is a ritual on Life inspired by the Wee Man adopted from SouleMama which was introduced to me by Roy Durham of Roy's Garage Sell and Auction

 If you wish to participate, post your picture on a Friday and leave your link in the comments.
Remember to shout's Friday ;) YEY!

Saturday, March 17, 2012

Recreating the Soul

I was about to write something about a book my dad gave me to read... but just like my other pending journals...this one has to wait... something more interesting came up...

A net journal is quite difficult to maintain  but since the diaries of this millennium are meant to be shared, then I guess, I'll just try to figure a way to keep them up.

This is an extended journal sharing... to a friend's friend... 

Most of my reflections come from my experiences with my patients and their relatives... colleagues and friends... and my own as well...

When one is in pain, whether it be physical or emotional... the natural tendency of humans is to protect itself from it. We call it fight vs. flight. Face it or  evade it. It's a natural human reaction. What causes it or who contributes to pain's gravity are also factors to consider.

Francisco Icasiano wrote Pain, I have realized, is beautiful only when one can rise from its depressing power... I remember writing the same thing to an intimate friend. She became inactive for awhile but I saw her rose from her miseries ~ a very strong woman indeed. 

She wrote me that she wasn't hiding...

 she was recreating herself...

While praying, our animator noticed how bent my companion was towards herself... as if in deep pain. 

Have you ever noticed that when your tooth aches or you have stomach cramps, you touch that area of pain and lean towards that body part?

It is normal... to feel the pain... but beware not to linger (hmmm...I have to repeat that to myself)... nor to get rid of it too soon. Look for the roots... and from there... choose...

You are right, pain is a feeling, and therefore, it is fleeting. It is part of our reality...yes... but...

The challenge is to feel pain and then transcend it. It gives us the inner strength to set us free from our EGOISM and veer towards OTHER people. 

If it's a life lived for others, how can we still say it's bullshit?

I love you and feel close to you who feel it right now... listen to yourself then open your ears and heart to other people... you'll see the wonders this pain has brought you...


"Rooted and built up in Jesus Christ,
firm in the faith." 

- Colossians 2,7

Friday, March 2, 2012

Comparison: The Thief of Joy?

It was appropriately while looking at myself in the mirror when my reflections on this all began...

"Comparison is the thief of Joy."
-Theodore Roosevelt-

IVT Trng.,Medical Ward, VMMC, 2009
I remembered how we perused the charts of each patient in the hospital reading the doctor's progress notes. Everyday, looking at how every intervention has augmented a person's life... Studying them in comparison with others of the same disease.

While it holds true that certain medications work in patients with the same cases, each one of them is treated individually and at a personal level.

Now, in a different work but still browsing papers, we take note how much an article improves after every revision in comparison to the original ones the doctors submitted.

Looking at both circumstances, comparison was used to identify a result, to conduct further researches in order to advance science and to ameliorate a patient's condition.

Comparison is in itself a healthy word as competition could be. It could be used in cases of discernment ~ comparing states of consolation and desolation or to weigh options to aid in decision making.

What is more interesting is the phrase I read from Solvita Bennett's article. She started with a quote by Max Frisch,

"Jealousy is the fear of comparison."

She goes on further by stating that jealousy come from your lower self, and IT is a thief who robs you of the joy you can feel when you share.

I think it isn't the act of comparison itself that needs to be checked but the emotions it evokes when one does it. We should also be aware why we do it.

So, it was appropriately when I looked in the mirror that I see myself... what I have and what I lack...

then I look at others...trapped in this desire to be better...

"Wishing me like to one more rich in hope, Featured like him, like him with friends possessed,
Desiring this man's art, and that man's scope, With what I most enjoy contented least;"

-When in disgrace with fortune and men's eyes, Sonnet 29, William Shakespeare-

Then I fix my eyes on God. I remember when I was younger how much I rant and rave over my co-travellers, comparing myself to their journey and my SD says,

"Look further...out there...
not at her...not at him...
 but there at the road..."

- a rephrase of 'not gazing at each other but in looking together in the same direction' by Antoine de Saint-Exupery

So I'll now hop on to my friends' blogs today ~ hitting that direction where love leads me.